Dagny

Alright, so I don’t know how long this blog will live, so if you see it and want to blog, do so before I send it to blog heaven!

Today my mom was cleaning and found my prom dress. I wore the dress when I was about 16 in the year 2003 (or close, junior prom) and I never went to my Senior prom. Well I had wanted a purple dress, but really none of the dresses fit me because of my size. So I picked this one, it went nice with my complexion and looked nice on me. Today I tried it on and my mom told me it looked ugly on me. It is loose in the stomach area, the hips and the back! I don’t know how much I weighed when I got the dress, and went to prom, but apparently I am smaller now than I was back then!

I took some pictures and my mom took some pictures of me as well. Can you tell it is loose on me? (though some of the pics we took came out blurry, I don’t know why) Sorry they are not the clearest.

The Idea:

A month or so ago I had tried to do a low sodium diet. I believe it helped me lose weight, and I know it helped my overall health. However, I got off track and never got back to it. But in December, I want to try to do this again and so I have made this “plan”. I don’t want to remove sodium totally from my diet, and I do not expect perfection. 1500-2300 mg is good for me. I also want it to fit into my lifestyle, and something I will stick to, so I don’t plan on cutting out any foods from my diet-like tuna or eggs.

The Plan:

Planning my meals, or most of the day’s meals the day before really helped me before. I think I will stick to that this time too. I am also going to do some research, maybe even look for books at the library. I am going to make a list of healthy, “free” foods. These foods will not be “free” of course, and I will count them in my calories but I just want a list of foods that are low in sodium that I can count on to eat everyday and use in my meals and snacks. Like apples, kiwi, baked potatoes and so on are some of the “free” foods I am thinking of.

The Attitude and Motivational Tools:

Before when I tried low sodium, it was very difficult. Many days I went over my range, and did not feel very successful. Instead of saying to myself, “Wow, my sodium is already 3,000mg, why don’t I just have chips since I am already beyond the range” I am going to avoid that! It is just like with calories, being over your goal doesn’t mean you should binge and get back on track next week.
Instead of focusing on the days I do not make my goal, I will celebrate the days I do meet it! I am going to put a sticker on the calender for each day that I stay in my sodium goals. Then at the end of the month (each month assuming I continue with this) I will count these days up. Then I will try to beat that score the next month, and do better if I can!
So even if I only succeeded for like 7 days…instead of feeling like a failure, I will try to do better than that 7 the next month, maybe going 8 or 10 days the next month!

This is my plan so far. I don’t know if it is a good one, but if you know any other advice or low sodium food ideas, please share them! Thanks.

I cannot find my other report, to compare my losses, so this is based on the last 2 months or so.

Bust–      -.25 inch

Waist–     -2 inches

Abdomen    -.75 inch

Hips            -1.75 inches

Thighs         -1.50 inches

Arm                -1 inch

Weight            -16.75 pounds

BMI                -2.60

Total Inches Lost -7.25 inches

Body Fat % -3%

And it says my strength went from 107 to 116 (I do Curves Smart)

After being weighed and measured, the manager asked if I could stay for the pictures. Apparently they were having photographs taken and she said since I was such a great member and lost so much weight, I should stay for that. However, the pictures were going in the paper…yikes, and I couldn’t do that or my dad would definitely find out I go to Curves! lol

But really for the one month I only lost 7  pounds…I wish I had lost more though. I seem to lose weight one week (like 1-3 pounds) then just gain it or most of it back the following week. I am still exercising at the same intensity, and the previous weeks I have been eating the same, and I even dropped my calories figuring that might be the answer. Might it be a plateau, or something? I would guess sodium, some days I do well but other days I am out of my range…

A few weeks ago I found a great pack of DVDs at a thrift shop for 3$! They are 10 of the best workouts, over 12 hours of video on 5 dvds! Today I found a workout dvd for….1 cent! haha. I was in the mall at FYE and was browsing their exercise videos (they are more expensive than Walmart!) But they have some of the Leslie Sansone walks that I can’t find at Walmart. So then I started looking at workouts I was unfamiliar with and found one that said it cost a penny! It is a ten minute solution, and it is a sampler. But it has 3 sampler workouts, 10 minutes each! I got that! I even asked the worker if it was a typo…he said even if it was he had to give me it at that price. So wow…watch out for great deals out there! You never know what you will find!

Back in July I found a denim skirt at a yard sale, and bought it. It was a size 20 and at around 275-280 pounds I could get the skirt up but was unable to zip it. A few weeks ago I realized that it actually fit me! So my legs are one part of my body which I hate, so I did try to find nylons or leg stockings that would hide them (and also keep my legs warm!) but the one pair I got that was 2x did not fit me, nor did the 4x (what is up with that?).

So despite not having anything covering my legs, I wore my skirt today! It was warm so at least I did not freeze.

This is from the 18 of September until now.

Waist  -1 inch

Abdomen same

Hips -.50 inch

Thighs -1 inch

Arms -.25 inch

Weight -9.75 pounds!

The body fat % thing says I gained body fat, but the Curves Trainer who weighed and measured me said that there are a list of reasons why that might be, like being close to TOM, salty foods and so on.

But the Scale showed almost a 10 pound loss! I am 248 according to their scale, I’m out of the 250s!

I also went shopping last night….in my closet! I cleaned it out and found my smaller sized shirts and some smaller sized sweatshirts for this winter. And then I sorted some of the summer clothes towards the back of the closet, along with some things that are too big. I need a bigger closet, a walk in closet is preferred! lol. But now I need to find some smaller sized pants…but I plan to go shopping Thursday so I will see if I can find any.

I have gym class on Mondays and Wednesdays, and then afterwards I go to Curves. The gym class is not tough, but it is walking, playing games and other things. But I have noticed that since I do my Curves workout in the evening, after a gym class that I don’t have as much energy as I had before. But there is really no way around that, I can’t skip gym class and I can’t skip a workout…

So I was wondering if anyone is sort of doing a workout back to back, or even multiple workouts in the same day, and how do you keep yourself from burning out?

I had my appointment for Curves Smart today! First I went through all of the machines and did a few reps so the computer could see my range of motion and energy on each machine. Afterwards I did my actual workout. The computer blinks steady green if you are doing well, yellow/red if you are going too slow and it blinks green if you are going too fast. Some times I went too fast and when I tried to slow down then I was going too slow…but it really made you work hard! I alway do my best and work as hard as I can on the machines, and I leave sweating, but today I thought I was going to leave a puddle of sweat in my path! lol

Then after my workout I went back to the computer to see my results. It basically shows your strengths and where you are weaker on the machines. And it gives you points…though I don’t know what they are for. It also told me that during my 30 minute workout I burned….496 calories!

No wonder I need a mop and bucket to clean up my trail of sweat! lol

This is not weight loss related, but I would really like some advice.

My boyfriend and I broke up the middle of July (I have some blogs about this). But we go to the same college, so we are sort of forced to see each other. However, he has the idea that we should be friends now. All month (September and some of August) he has been…following me. At first he would sit with me at lunch and try to talk to me. But once I made it known that I was not interested in being his girlfriend, not even his friend, he seemed to get a little mad. Afterwards, he didn’t really sit with me, he sat with another girl. I think she was his girlfriend, according to him, but I doubted that. If I would sit on one side of the cafeteria, she would sit nearby, and he would sit with her…and watch me!

Well she disappeared, dropped out perhaps. So now there is a boy who I have seen talking to him, he often sits near me and watches me sometimes. Well after being tired of being watched so much, I began eating my lunch outside where he did not find me. If I hid in the cafeteria, that did not seem to work. And people who I don’t know seem to know me. One day I was walking down the stairs and saw him, I thought I was caught but then his back was turned to me so there was no way for him to see me, so I figured I’d get by him easy. However, when a guy who I do not know, have never seen before said something like “There she is” or something like that, my ex turned around and approached me to talk. Who was that guy? I don’t know how he knew me… Rationally, I think I might just be overreacting or paranoid, but it just seems like they are watching me or something.

But now due to bad weather, I can’t eat outside anymore. Someone told me if I was brave enough, when he sits to talk to me, I should say in a load voice that I was not interested in being his friend, and to leave me alone. In this case, he might fear further humiliation and rejection and just leave me alone. But I’m not all that brave, and unsure how that might turn out…

Today he literally sat with me at lunch…that table was mine first, and there were plenty of other tables for him to sit at. He said that he regrets some of the things he said to me, and it was a sin how he treated me (or something like that). Throughout the entire conversation, I kept trying to sent him the message that I wasn’t interested. I think that was his favorite lunch of the school year though…

A friend of mine told me to ignore him, but how do you ignore someone who talks to you? For a while, I did ignore him and I don’t think it seemed to work. He knows that for a few weeks I was hiding from him, though he doesn’t know where.  Hopefully this was a one time thing, but I don’t think it was. How do I keep him from entering my life again?

I hate to be harsh…part of me feels sorry for him. I don’t think he has a new girlfriend yet, (well I don’t have a new bf either) but I guess he just seems like a very sad person, or puppy…that just keeps following you home. I don’t want to be harsh or hurt his feelings. Yet on the other hand, I just feel like he was not a good boyfriend, and he definitely knew that. When we broke up, I offered to stay friends, but he said no. Then when he demanded the locket back, that is just like a message saying you are not in my life anymore or something (that is how I feel). After all, friends give friends expensive gifts and stuff. But it wasn’t the necklace or that I wanted to keep it, just what him demanding it back meant.

So do I send him on his way, and how?

I was weighed and measured today at Curves! It was in the afternoon, so I think that lunch made the scale ineffective but…I think the inches lost speak for themselves!

Inches lost

Bust –1.50

Waist –1.50

Abs–The measurements from the other month were off so no update on this

Hips –3

Thighs –1.75

Arms –1.50

Weight –7.25

Body Fat % –4.10 lost!

This was since last month, so in one month I have lost 9.25 inches! My scale at home though still says I’m at 250 this morning so I’m not going to change my ticker, plus some of that weight could have been what I had at lunch and even the water I’ve been drinking. The woman measuring me was very shocked!

Next month we are getting Curves Smart and I am signed up for that! And I also got some more workout videos today (2 Leslie Sansone’s and the Biggest Loser Workout.  I can’t wait until next month’s weight and measure report!

At college today I drove all the way home only to find that I don’t have my purse! So I drove back. I retraced my steps and of course I did not find it, not even in in lost and found. I’m pretty sure someone picked it up and walked off with it…which I think is a disgrace.

I had some money it it, probably no more than 30$ (like if I ran out of gas and need some to get home). But otherwise I don’t carry much money with me, so no loss there. But I also lost my Driver’s License and am sending in to get a replacement. I also had my flash drive in there…Then I had other little odds and ends in my bag that I wish I hadn’t lost. I had a class ring and two bracelets, and it is stupid but I miss them. The class ring was valuable, but the two bracelets were my favorite (one was a kitty bracelet), still no more than 10$ each…and I had a bahamas penny and a Singapore coin (I just thought these were cool and got them when I received change back and kept them.)  I know these things are not so valuable but they were valuable to me….

I figure someone took the money and ran with the purse? But why would they want little things that mean things to me and not to them? I don’t know how people who do that sleep at night! One day I bought a carton of milk at a store and was charged less than the price. I figured this out once I took the receipt and milk to my car…it was only 5-10 cents, but I still went back in and gave them the money.

I guess it isn’t so bad, I mean no one was hurt but it really is wrong that people don’t follow the rules of ownership these days…